I'm afraid to medicate.

There is no shame in using meds, if they help, then that is absolutely brilliant! I have been on and off of anti depressants, since I was 16, I've had Fluoxetine, Sertraline, Citalopram and Escitalopram.

Truth is, I have, in the past, had a ton of success with my meds, but lately, absolutely everything I try, give's me some horrendous, side effects! After my doctor chose to change my meds, one more time, I collected them, but that's all, they're still in an unopened box on my kitchen counter.

It's not that I think meds are bad, actually, I've seen the good they can do, I just hate how they effect me, sometimes, they turn you into an emotionless robot! I used to think that I'd be better off, without emotions at all, but that's not true, emotions are what make us human, they're what make us, who we are...

Don't take my word for it.

Of course, when it comes to your own personal health, mental or physical, you have to make decisions for yourself, you have to try things, before coming to a conclusion... I write this blog as a way to reaching people, in hopes that people will realize that, they're not alone! But I'm not a professional, I'm just another human, fighting her way through her own personal war, just like you!

There is no right or wrong choice.

Refusing to take meds, does not mean that you're unwilling to help yourself, as long as you are seeking help, in the first place, talking to somebody or doing any kind of self care... You are helping yourself! And taking med's does not mean you're weak, strong people do what's necessary to get better, meds or no meds, you're doing what's right for you!

As always, be safe, make good choices, yada yada yada.

With Love,

Winter.